Have you ever been nominated for one of those, challenges where you have to post pictures, that are intended to show, your confident and beautiful in your photos?
I share, being confident and comfortable in a picture certainly doesn’t mean you feel that way about yourself. “A picture speaks a thousand words”, but from my experience, it’s not about how someone looks, rather how they are feeling in that moment. I have been blessed with being able to capture the beauty of a moment and share that in a selfie. I also share, that doesn’t mean I feel beautiful all the time.
I think it’s fair to say, you don’t find me alone in a lot of pictures. I often use my selfie stick as a shield, when I find myself in an overwhelming situation, or trying to capture a moment that might make me uncomfortable. I have often used the selfie stick to leave enough space, between me and the camera, to hide my flaws. For me, sharing all the people that surround me or have brought me a true moment of joy, is real and far more gratifying, then seeing myself alone and exuding beauty, when I am not genuinely feeling that way.
Sometimes I wake up and I have a hard time looking at my body. If it wasn’t for that selfie, I may have believed what I saw, in that mirror, aging skin and an overweight figure. Somedays, rather then applaud myself for having found the strength to grow muscles, I shame myself because, my jeans no longer fit my runners physique.
I have struggled with my weight since I was a teenager. I often compare myself to Oprah, having been between a size 0-20. The problem with that, somewhere along the way…my mind got confused about the body it was in.
So, I thank my selfie…for being the reminder I need sometimes, of how beautiful the women in front of the mirror has become.
I ask myself everyday…what is it, that I am doing to feel beautiful, so I can go out and share that, with the world. I share the answer was finding gratitude for my life and living it with passion and purpose, that’s when my attitude changed ,along with what I saw in the mirror. This today, is what transcends, when I share my beautiful selfie.